1 Corinthians 13:13
And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love.
The journey of cancer has made me very reflective. I am free, healing, solemn and a garden-variety-of-words that face me each day.
Prior to cancer I was a “talk radio” person, I rarely listened to music, preferring a jarring conversation about what is wrong with the world today, or what is right (God)!
In the “dark nights of the soul” I found some unbelievably heavy-hearted, beautiful soul cleansing music. To this day I am still deeply moved by the lyrics. My favorite is:
He has shown you, O man, what is good; And what does the Lord require of you But to do justly, To love mercy, And to walk humbly with your God?
I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me.
While doing my devotions this morning, I added music to my routine. Blasted the volume on my laptop and plugged into YouTube and started with Selah, Wonderful Merciful Savior, then one of my favorites by Jesus Culture; “Break Every Chain.”
I was reminded of what keeps me in bondage; bad habits some might say, but I know they are more than that – they keep me separated from God. Ironically (but not really, right???!!!), my devotion was on placing my trust in the Holy Spirit to guide and nudge me towards a Godly life, instead of living by feelings; which can change in a moment’s notice.
I have been overcome by the presence of God many times. Music seems to be the vehicle, the lyrics speak to my heart and remind me through repetition (I listen to the same song fifty times, like I did when I was a teenager!) what my heart longs for, to be closer to God, to live in His grace and to know that I am saved.