In the every day, I find the various pieces of my life. There has been a lot of anguish for a hurting world, but in my own space, there is grief. At times, overwhelming. I am surprised that I have managed to survive the loss of a brother and sister in just a few months. A redeeming component is that I will see them again and secondly, Jesus walks with me every step. He reminds me with a beautiful sunset the ways in which my loved ones are still with me. He brings forward to memory, good times, special moments. And although I spend a lot of time sighing, remembering, grieving, I know it’s merely temporary. I will see them again.
Wherever you are in the various stages of grief, I can attest that some days are easier. And joy does occasionally visit! Hurt is a feeling. God reminds us that feelings come and go, but the light of our life, the salt of the earth, the comfort of a Fathers’ love is right here, right now. Not fleeting.
My trip to Scotland and Ireland was wonderful, but it’s always good to be home. Summer is winding down fast here in Western Wisconsin, our maple tree is half orange and dropping leaves, right on schedule; usually the third week in September the trees start to change color.
In this post I want to write about the emptiness we all feel at various times in our life. For me, it generally stems from a loss or is a season of grieving. My mother died when I had just turned 14, it was already a tumultuous time; with hormones raging, a new school to attend and the fact that my home life was changing drastically.
Here I am, 40+ years later and I still deeply miss my mother. It may very well be the definitive change of seasons, the earth is getting ready for her greatest time; hibernation with renewal fast on her heels.
I tend to go deeper into my faith during these times, I wonder if you do too; or do you crawl deeper into your bed, a warm comforter or dog to soothe your heart?
But you do see; you take note of misery and sorrow; you take the matter in hand. To you the helpless can entrust their cause; you are the defender of orphans.
There are many variations of loss. Of life, love, a health diagnosis, home, job, and whatever it is, is the most important thing to you at the time. No one could possibly understand, even if they can relate – it’s not the same. Sometimes we don’t want empathy as much as we want someone to listen. We want someone to put up with our bad days — the days when we feel deeply alone in our grief.
In time of grief that is so incredibly overwhelming, where do you go for peace?
The Lord has appeared to him from afar, saying: Indeed, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with lovingkindness I have drawn you.
“A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another, even as I have loved you, that you also love one another.
Today I’d like to share part of my testimony with you, which – until this morning, I didn’t realize I had! God doesn’t really work in mysterious ways, He reveals what we can handle!
The biggest source of healing in my life, has been emotional. All of my broken pieces have been soldered back together; not at one time, but over a period of many years. God has restored relationships and even healed memories.
The biggest eye opener for me; is that I left God behind, He never left. NEVER. He was always there, available to me if only I had asked. But I didn’t ask. Instead I let disappointment fuel my anger towards God. Some might say that is blasphemy, but I believe more than anything, God wants our honesty, he desires a close relationship with me. How can it be close if it’s superficial? God has seen me at my absolute worst, not many of us have gotten that close to another human being. “Warts and all” a description to sum up what God accepts from me.
Share your testimony, here or with another. Let the story of your life be a ‘saving piece.’
The holidays tend to bring a mix of sadness and joy. We mourn the loss of those we have loved, that are no longer here to celebrate familiar traditions. We delight in the knowledge that we will be reunited again, but today, it hurts. Our heart is sad, the grief sometimes unspoken. But your heavenly Father knows this pain, he suffered the greatest loss of them all; the Crucifixion if his Son. He knows your pain, the grief, He watches your tears fall, and He desires to comfort you; will you draw close to Him?
Psalm 119:28 I weep with grief; my heart is heavy with sorrow; encourage and cheer me with your words.
1 Corinthians 1:9 God will surely do this for you, for he always does just what he says, and he is the one who invited you into this wonderful friendship with his Son, even Christ our Lord.
In the deepest parts of grief, lean on God. This strengthens your faith and helps you draw closer to your Savior.