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Everyday Pieces

In the every day, I find the various pieces of my life. There has been a lot of anguish for a hurting world, but in my own space, there is grief. At times, overwhelming. I am surprised that I have managed to survive the loss of a brother and sister in just a few months. A redeeming component is that I will see them again and secondly, Jesus walks with me every step. He reminds me with a beautiful sunset the ways in which my loved ones are still with me. He brings forward to memory, good times, special moments. And although I spend a lot of time sighing, remembering, grieving, I know it’s merely temporary. I will see them again.

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Wherever you are in the various stages of grief, I can attest that some days are easier. And joy does occasionally visit! Hurt is a feeling. God reminds us that feelings come and go, but the light of our life, the salt of the earth, the comfort of a Fathers’ love is right here, right now. Not fleeting.

Amen!
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New and shiny pieces

This blog is still a blog, but it’s now a website too!  I will be doing a lot of tweaking in the next week to make it easier to read with biblical resources.  If you ever want to guest blog here, please let me know.  (dawnhuberty@yahoo.com)

I wanted to write about “all that glitters isn’t gold.”  I think it might be “IS” gold, but I digress!

Do you remember the feeling of getting something new?  A piece of jewelry, a new(er) car, your first apartment, or a collectible?  Isn’t it wonderful “at first”?? We look at it constantly, gaze, describe it’s qualities, feel blessed, happy, excited.  And after a few weeks or months, it’s just where we live, what we drive, or wear.  Sometimes it catches our eye or someone compliments us, but as the days go by, it just becomes a part of our daily life.

This happens with our faith too.  Some days we are more gung-ho than others.  A few years ago, I was determined to start my day with a morning devotional, along with a cup of coffee.  I would spend time in the Word and prayer.  Every.  Single.  Day.

And then, cancer happened.  The first five months I lived, breathed, slept, talked about cancer, fighting it, healing from it and then …… just when I wanted to get back to my life; turns out chemotherapy ruined my brain.  I couldn’t read or stay focused, I was unable to concentrate at all.  Coffee didn’t appeal to me either.   The special morning meditative time went away.

16 months later I have not been able to resume my meditation time, but I have found other ways.  I use a rosary for my prayers, each bead is a request or gratitude.  I do have a daily post in my email that inspires and encourages, it’s short and to the point.  I may not remember it later in the day, but it quenches my spirit for the time.

Faith is a constant.  We may have to find alternative ways to stay in grace, but it’s there, just for the asking.  I pray my book “The Pieces” lifts you up to understanding all that is good with God. 

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Memory Pieces

I have a variety of pics on my desk, one rotates often as I come across memories I want to see more often than in a photo album (or phone).  For the past month it has been of my dad and I, taken in 1991.  We were visiting my brother in Amsterdam and it was also six weeks since my pacemaker surgery.  We are standing in big, yellow Dutch shoes at a farm of some sort.

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These shoes were everywhere!  Made mostly of wood, but there were also plastic and concrete types, ready to be stood in.

I have quite a few good memories of this trip; shopping at the Christmas markets in Germany, riding the train, having lunch at McDonald’s (except for the Coke, it tasted the same), eating authentic Dutch and German food, traveling to the many castles that dot the country side, etc.  But more than all of the experiences; it was time with my father.  It was the last trip we would make together; he died two years later.

God worked miracles in our relationship.  He was a tough parent.  I imagine it was his Norwegian/North Dakota upbringing.  I “never understood” him throughout my entire life; until this trip.   He was vulnerable, a word I never thought I’d use to describe him.  He was also funny.  We shared meals and laughter and he often took my arm for support.  God mended the fences without words; we just became comfortable with each other.  It was an incredible blessing.

Never give up on the people in your life.  I have a friend who hasn’t seen her grandchildren in many years; it’s heart breaking.  Yet, she continues to pray.  And praise.  And that, is the best solution to any request.  Ask, believe, and be grateful.

 

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Pieces, scraps of paper

The original book (which this blog is based on), “The Pieces” is from journals, scraps of paper, various writing I have done inspired by my faith and what God has taught me. Here are a few unpublished revelations.

“The Pieces,” my story, Your words. Inspiration  & truth.   Let’s save the world with You!

There was a time during my chemo journey that I anticipated only three treatments.  I was very disappointed to learn there would be a total of six.  God reminded me that He is the great Protector and Healer, that I am never alone.  (I felt very lonely during this time). 

The tumor, surgery, recovery, chemotherapy, healing from incisions, chemo brain, infections, neuropathy, the list goes on, I thought I would possibly die from one of these.  But here I am; still.  My Savior never left, encouraging me with the words of kind people, doctors, cards & visits.

Jesus, thank you for being present.  Forgive my anger and frustration  The enemy is hard at work, trying to get me back.  But he doesn’t know how coated in the armor of God I am, that my soul is filled with light, joy and grace.  Genesis 3:1-8 I too, hid from God while the pieces of evil were coming together.  It is not MY battle to win, it is Yours.  You are already there.  I know this lesson, but have chosen not to see.  Choosing to skip church or several mornings of devotions, gives the devil an inch.  Keep me close Lord, remind me what being lax does to the human spirit.

I am covered by the Armor of God:

  1. Belt of truth
  2. Helmet of salvation
  3. Towering shield of faith
  4. Mighty sword of the spirit
  5. The breastplate of righteousness

I feel peace in my spirit.  Each day is a gift.  So much came from cancer, the times I felt lonely, Jesus drew closer. 

 

 

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Feeling Pieces

We often feel a certain way; anxious, sad, happy, joyful, worried, compassionate, etc.  Feelings however, can mar our walk of faith.  We tend to trust how we feel, instead of what God is actively doing in our life.  Especially when it doesn’t seem like He cares or is listening, or has a plan.  God always has a plan!

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Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding (Prov. 3:5).

Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered (Prov. 28:26).

The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it? (Jer. 17:9).

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Pieces of Serenity

Yesterday it was cold, cloudy and rainy.  Today, the sun is shining, the sky is blue, the clouds are few, the birds are chirping.  It’s a perfect Spring day.

We find pieces of serenity in many places.  A beautiful garden, a beach with gentle waves, hiking in the mountains, sitting outside with a cup of tea and a good book, walking the dog, the list is endless.  Where are you when a cool breeze finds you?

In my mind (guided imagery) I have a beautiful small cabin, surrounded with large pine trees, a lake nearby with picnic table.  My dad visits me here, and we talk for hours about everything.  I used to always have a cat (before I had a dog in real life), and now I have a dog that follows me around, and lays at my feet.  I built this place years ago, as a place to go in my mind when the world was too much to deal with.  Last year, while battling cancer, I was there a lot.  It’s peaceful, calm and I have no visitors except the elements (rain on the tin roof, a cool breeze on a hot summer day, snow in the winter with snowshoes propped up against the back door).

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When I want serenity in real life; I often find myself at a country cemetery.  I must be a glutton for open air and genuine quiet.  I find myself under a pine tree, when the wind blows just right, I can hear the whisper of God.  I find it incredibly cathartic.

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Experience serenity with Mother Earth.

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Pieces of Companionship

What does companionship have to do with faith?  A lot, as it turns out!  Conversation, conversion, discernment, spiritual direction, even sharing in community projects.  It’s always more enjoyable with a friend.

If you regularly attend a church, you maybe involved with the different ministries that support the members or outside communities; such as social justice.

I’ve found that using the skills you already have can help others in what they may need.  If you are organized, maybe help with the food shelf.  If you like to read, volunteer to proof the newsletter.  If you enjoy hearing about the “old days,” visit your elderly members.  There is always a way to reach out, and in doing so, you increase your faith, and likely – that of those you are in contact with.

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When you are a bright light in a dark world, sharing your testimony of faith is a gift to those who are open to hear it.  I give God ALL the glory for bringing me out of ovarian cancer and healing my body.  God planted the seeds for research and treatment, I am blessed beyond words, to be alive.  Alive and well and cancer free.

So when you need a friend, reach out to those who know you, and perhaps you will extend your reach even further, to those you don’t. 

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Pieces of Change

I have never considered myself a particular religion.  I was baptized and confirmed “Lutheran,” but haven’t attended a Lutheran church in 40 years! Spent four years with the Unitarian Universalist church, meeting amazing people who challenged my beliefs.  Met a new friend who invited me to her church; Episcopalian, new to me, but also similar to the Catholic churches that I had explored, including retreat for more than fifteen years.  Seems that maybe I was heading the way of Catholicism, but never felt the draw to convert and join.  UNTIL NOW.

I’m on a new journey; again.  Thank goodness that God honors and encourages the soul to seek.  At least, that’s what I believe.

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So once again I put my thinking cap and glasses on, looking toward a new future, one that saves my soul, captures my spirit, embraces my faith and brings me closer to home.  Amen.

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Pieces of Friendship

Jesus was friends with many people and in our quest to be more like Him, we share our life with friends also.

There are many variations of the bible; versions such as King James or the Living Bible, Good News, etc., but until today I had never heard of The Message.  I love how it breaks down these verses in Job 29:3-5

Job now resumed his response: “Oh, how I long for the good old days, when God took such very good care of me. He always held a lamp before me and I walked through the dark by its light. Oh, how I miss those golden years when God’s friendship graced my home, When the Mighty One was still by my side and my children were all around me, When everything was going my way, and nothing seemed too difficult.

What a beautiful definition of friendship with God. 

Today I spoke with a friend who is a snowbird in Texas.  We try and talk  once a week now, but oftentimes it’s less often.  I miss seeing her whenever I want, but I know she is just a call away.

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Maybe we feel that way sometimes with God.  We haven’t been studying His word, or spending time in prayer, worship or in solitude.  He too, is just a call away, He is always here, we just have to ask, cry out or pray.  Sometimes all three!

May you be blessed this week, finding time with a good friend and with the best friend; Jesus.

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Pieces of garland

When Jesus was born in a lowly manger, there was no garland, no star for the tree, in fact, no decorations, because it wasn’t Christmas yet.  The people may have celebrated a new year, but it was mostly turning the pages of time.

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To me, garland is grand, sparkling, festive and very shiny.  Jesus deserved this kind of entrance into the world, didn’t He?  He was showered with expensive gifts from the three wise men, so perhaps that fills the void (for me)!

The real reason for the birth of this baby, was His destiny; He was born into greatness.  He would not only walk among human beings for 33 years of His life, but He would save us, from an empty life, one filled with sin, strife and pain.

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Thank you God, for the miracle of Jesus’s birth, His life on earth with us and the promise of eternal life with You.  You are the garland on my tree!